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by The Sulk of Panther. . 353 reads.

End of the Rainbow

Serving to preserve remembrance of a departed friend and fellow citizen. The lepearchauns served the region for well over a decade, and this alone is more than deserving of commendation. Yet, for those who knew him best, it will perhaps be his companionship throughout all that time which is best remembered. We in South Pacific trust this to stand in honor of his memory.
"It will be a smaller place without him."

The lepearchauns

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Ive been thinking of a way to say this all day, but since im not mincing words with raiders or moderators today, I think its best to not mince them with you. And with Panther regaining the delegacy, I think now is as good a time as any

Im leaving Nationstates, effective today.

Ive spent the last 13 and a half years, 4189 consecutive days (11 and a half years) here in this region. Ive been here to rebuild a dozen, closer to two dozen times from raids, coups and broken administrations. I spent 3 years staying up until the wee hours of the morning, every night watching for raids as a defender. I spent many, many nights up far later than I should have been watching regional happenings waiting for goons to show up. At this point I feel like I havnt had a sound night sleep since the Bush administration.

And Im tired.

Ill always remember those who were here when I started, Trev, ABC, Idol Rock, Iguanistan, Densaner and Nox. The RMB games, weekly trivia and drinks of the week. Those who were with us in the lean years like Avian Brotherhood, Ling and Siorta. When we were down to just a handful of people and it felt like the region might not last following the Nationstates 2 disaster. And im grateful to those who have come recently to pick up the torch, Panther, Maowi, Holly, making the region into what it is today.

But I have had enough stress in life lately, to the point where even I worry about my mental health at times. And I cannot keep letting my free time activities drag me down the way it has for 13 years. I cant keep worrying every night about the next raid the way I used to, and it took this raid to give me that perspective.

Its sad in a way, like leaving home. Ive logged onto this site nearly every day for 13 years. I logged into NS for the first time in high school physics lab as a way to message a new friend group about coffee nights at a local cafe. NS was my crutch through the deaths of 3 grandparents, just being able to talk normal again after a few days was refreshing. NS was here on my summer vacations. I remember logging in from a small country town library, on a computer older than I was and what can only be described as Russian potato quality internet to make sure the region was ok while my family was on the lake for 3 straight weeks. NS was there when I went off to college and Id have it open as I pulled all nighters in the architecture studio. I even remember it was open the night none of us evacuated during a fire alarm and the fire department got super pissed. After I broke up with my high school crush that first fall of college, I signed onto NS because it was one of the few normals I had left. When I was kicked out of college, and transferred to a different one, I used NS and defending as a crutch to get me by. When I moved to Maryland, and all I had was my laptop and an air mattress, I still had you all. Through 4 apartments, 3 roommates getting married and 3 years living alone I still logged on here every day. I cant say I wont miss it. Hell, even as short as this is, its been 3 hours since I started it and I hadnt even noticed.

In the words of Matthew Mercer, "Dont forget to love each other". I love all of you, even Den, the bastard.

one last time,
lep
- Jeffrey. K. Shulenburg

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The Sulk of Panther

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